tag:playingthegameagain.blog.co.uk,2009-11-11:/The first time would have been November 98'- i only started seeing him because the two blokes he shared a house with had been driving me nuts trying to get into my knickers, dont get me wrong i liked them both- but i thought i would like him more. i have to admit he did look very pleasing, three peice pinstripe, expensive shoes and gentlemanly with it. Just goes to show how wrong my judgment can be! But that was nearly 9 years ago. And here we are again, im just stepping back in the game & its with him again. MokoFeed2009-11-11T20:30:10+01:00tag:playingthegameagain.blog.co.uk,2007-07-26:/2007/07/26/title~2707679/thehostess2007-07-26T21:51:21+02:002007-07-26T21:51:21+02:00 <p>I have to admit that up until a few weeks ago the thought of having him touch me again actually physically made my stomach turn over. Im not sure what changed but evidently it has or we would not have shared that sexy five minutes this morning. im in a happy state of shock, no, not shock surprise<img src="/img/smilies/grayshy.gif" alt=":." class="middle" border="0"><br> I know ive changed, i wasnt ready to settle before, i now find myself with this overwhelming urge that i want to live in contented harmony with another<img src="/img/smilies/graybigeek.gif" alt="88|" class="middle" border="0">- im still not sure how we have ended up here though? there is so much history between us is it really wise to open all that up again? probably not<img src="/img/smilies/icon_twisted.gif" alt=":>" class="middle" border="0"> but i think we might just be able to manage a life together now, and judging by the performance he put on this morning i might really enjoy myself this time round.</p> <p>He has grown up too, into a giver, not a receiver which suits me down to the ground! April 04 was the last time i did it, that was with him- i was sooo drunk i dont recall feeling any pleasure just an overwhelming urge to bring up all the alcohol i had consumed in the last 5 hours, hardly the stuff of erotism (is that even a real word?- if its not it should be) i want more of the new him, or do i?<br> if the past is anything to go by he'll be full on and intense with me, mentioning marriage within the month. i do want it, i think i do- but thats always the way with me, i panic too soon. </p> <p>I should slow down and take it one step at a time. Ive just got to make sure i stay in charge, thats all- he should be putty in my hands if i play things right, but i will have to wait a fortnight to play my next hand- trust me to choose 5 minutes before he boards a plane to the other side of the world to lay on my charms...... </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://playingthegameagain.blog.co.uk/2007/07/26/title~2707679/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>